Ok ppl. I don't know what does this serve for. But... let's try it.I'd like to share with you one of my diary pages....sooo... here it is.)

Do you know what’s it like standing in the very deepest part of the forest?
Cold fingers of the darkness wraped around my body. I could taste the bitter scent of nothingness in the air. Slowly, crawling, the nothingness possessed my feet, my legs, my chest, my arms, may head, my mind,my soul... I was struggling against it, staggering against the glowy, dazzling light that suddenly appeared in front of me, far, but at the same moment so close. I was trying to reach, to touch it with my almost frozen fingertips. The stiffen body, suffocating soul all at once became feathery light. I was leaning swifly forward . The glowy, golden light touched my chalky white skin. The thin crystal layer of ice started melting under the comfotable heat radiating from high above the sky. Sweet cosy air started filling my stiffen lungs, rush of fresh, hot blood started pulsating beneath my skin, burning it from the inside. The extreme feeling of joy owerwhelmed me. Adrenaline rushed through my every single cell.The feeling was so delight that it almost frightened me. Just too good to be real, to be happening right now,right here, to me. I let the moment take me, not willingly, I closed my eyes, a bit frightened that all of that will vanish when I open them again. A toasty, sweet touch on my lips... they turned into a smile, revealing my pearly white teeth. My eyes smiled to, still not opening. I laughed at this unreconizable feeling unclenching my fists this time, being sure that that moment wasn’t going to slip through my fingers. I stayed there as long as the sun was the source of my strenght, still having my eyes closed. The sweet-bitter nothingness was still somewhere around me,but not as dominant as it was in the dark. I was, once again, alone, but it didn’t feel like that at all. The sun was far on the horizon, steadily going down...
Beep, bee, beep, beep, beep... beeeeeep. And then... nothing. Nothing at all... Not the dark, not the sun, not the cold... Just, an even more unfamiliar space that surrounded me, that is surrounding me. And me, in the middle of it, still not feeling, scenting, hearing...


Zwek